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A series of haiku posters have shown up on my walk to the metro in DC. I am inspired to give haiku a try. Here goes…
Snow falling downward
Creates a magic blanket
A week ago I facilitated a vision board workshop at my house. I usually am not able to focus on my own board enough to start the gluing, so finally, it is ready to share.
To start the workshop, I facilitated a visualization exercise where the participants (and I) were to receive a gift, and to open and experience it. My gift showed up as a parrot-like bird. I found the totem meaning for parrot on www.linsdomain.com
This messenger supports my theme for the year which is “CONNECTION”. I intend to expand my network and expand what I currently see as possible for myself. I’ve had a great run of having some big desires fulfilled – cross country move, perfect job for husband (and me), perfect house (plus schools) for our family, and a perfect puppy…to name a few.
These all have been ideas that have become real things for me in the right time, and the right form. It is fabulous to watch the unfolding (both the good parts, and the uncomfortable parts which I call growth opportunities). So at this point, I am feeling a desire to revel in what has come to fruition and not create any new ‘big’ desires just yet…so my instinct is to get out and about and expand my network and my comfort zone. I believe by doing this, I will activate new desires that are yet to be known by me.
Since I created my board, I’ve felt inspired to attend several networking events, investigated Toastmasters, updated my website and am creating this post. All feel aligned with my vision board…and my new expansive desires will be forthcoming, I am certain.
What is your vision for 2015? Do you have a ritual that supports your vision? Sharing helps to create collective energy for what you’re creating for yourself! AND if you’ve yet to create a vision, contact me, it’ll be fun!
I have been at my computer for over an hour searching for something interesting to read or someone to connect with. I’m not feeling successful with my search but I cannot seem to leave my perch. I thought writing might help but every topic has felt like a no (I feel it in my throat and gut).
My word for the year is ‘connection’ (or some variation of that word) and at this moment I would say I am not ‘tapped into’ that word. It isn’t feeling like a big deal, but it is peaking my curiosity about why I am searching and why I won’t let go of the search (in this moment).
I do know that if I leave my computer I have family members watching a movie I don’t want to see, a house that needs tidying for a party tomorrow, and books that can be read but not ‘feeling it’. So, as I’ve just blathered on about my situation, I KNOW that I am bored…and boredom is one of my feeling states that leads to incessant internet activity.
I can’t say that I will leave the computer once I’ve ended this post. I feel as though I am in a vortex…and am not choosing to get out, yet. Of course, bed sounds kind of nice. Maybe.
I go through phases where I will look at the clock at exactly :11 and it will happen regularly for a while. It brings a grin to my face every time.
My friend and I have spoken of this often throughout our friendship and so when I see it, I send her a quick note telling her I am thinking of her, and I usually include a word or two about what I am thinking/feeling/doing.
I also see it as a sign that I am in my ‘sweet spot’ of alignment. My thoughts and feelings are right where they should be to have events and things flow smoothly (mostly). I am on one of those roles now.
I look forward to many more :11s, and a few 1:11s and 11:11s thrown in for good measure.
I have knack for not trying to plan for the future, it stresses me out if I do because I don’t know what it holds, but I do know that I am always delighted by what is delivered. I like this perspective because I trust that my life is divinely led; and I am never let down.
At this moment, I am the owner of a new-to-me car I didn’t know I wanted or needed, and it is way fancier than I would have ever imagined. This is 3 days into the new year. If this is a sign for what is yet to come…I’m stoked!
Every new year I surround myself with a pile of all of our socks. I have high hopes that all will have a matching pair. By the end I have a significant pile of matching socks; and an equal amount of mismatched ones. I hesitate to throw out the mismatched pile in the off-chance that the match will materialize. A matching pair is rarely found.
Every year I intend to create a system to ensure all socks are matched at all times. At the end of every year, I am left with massive pile of mismatched socks.
When will the madness end?
I set a goal to write today. I wrote. It was deleted. I start again.
I know that I created this writing drama as I’ve been in resistance to writing (as seen by the last post date being September). I now realize that it would have been quite useful to spend some pre-paving time to align with my writing and to create a more positive energy “pre” writing. I have clear evidence of the benefits of pre-paving in many other areas of my life…and this is no different.
I consider the energy to be shifted back to the ‘writing flow’. It feels much better…and whatever I wrote before will live in limbo because I don’t feel like re-writing it (I’m grumpy-pants about deleting it). So there!
Today I got this message in my fortune cookie!
I was elated to see that my efforts are going to pay off and soon! Then, I laughed at myself. Do I REALLY need a fortune cookie to know and believe that my efforts will pay off? No, but it is fun to be reminded through this playful messenger.
I am reminded of a recent conversation I had with a client. She wanted to leave her job and create a career that fit more with her desires, strengths and values. Her boss was toxic, demanding and the work was way below her talent and skills, but the need for money and the lack of another alternative were keeping her stuck. Throughout our coaching engagement we worked on both the practical parts of career change and also the inside/spiritual/woo-woo parts. It was a dance and there were many advances and many retreats but all in all the intention was in the right direction. FINALLY, she found the courage to quit even when nothing was officially set up on the other side. I don’t always encourage this path, but we had worked on understanding the true financial situation and also realized that the work circumstances and the psychological toll were thwarting her attempts to find her next fabulous gig.
As we were celebrating this decision, she admitted that she was always looking for “signs” for what the right decision would be. In the end, she felt that not many signs showed up to lead her to the best decision. That statement: “I was looking for signs”…is such a curious one because at the end of the day, we do wish we could have the answers to our issues written in sky writing and in ads seemingly tailor-made for us in the newspaper.
I believe it really is possible sometimes to have an answer fall in our lap (in a newspaper article), or on our head (as in a book from a shelf), or in our ears (via a song or conversation); but I don’t think that is the full picture of how it works. I think the journey involves us aligning with the core essence of what we desire (peace, fulfillment, connection, freedom etc) before the signs can make themselves known. In essence you have to know what to ask and look for before the signs can show up in your awareness. I’ll be bold enough to say that the signs ARE everywhere (always) but you can’t see them if your focus is on what you don’t want.
Unfortunately, when we are in deeply disturbing situation, the ability to think of desires can be elusive and steeped in psychological dissonance. The only desire in that state is usually “NOT THIS”, Sadly that focus will give you more of what you don’t want because that is where your attention lies: in the “not this”. So, when a clear-headed moment arises, ask “if not this, then what?”. The more times you can open up to the question “what do I really want?” and drill down to the essence of your desire, the more clarity and relief you’ll experience which will put you in the frame of mind to SEE the positive signs that are around (everywhere) to guide you.
To be honest, a lot of the signs are actually in the form of feelings and they can best be explained by the “hot and cold” game of our youth. Basically, if you feel bad about something you are getting colder (further from what you want) and if you feel good about something you’re getting warmer (closer to what you want). It takes being present with your body and feelings to connect with those signs. I think it is brilliant that we’ve been designed to be able to access the answers with our own bodies…how cool is that? We have a compass with us always if we’re willing to tune in and listen.
I see the types of signs we get from songs, words, and people are part of the warmer/colder game as well…but I think of them more as “winks from God/Universe”.
My fortune cookie message today is a God-wink! That makes me smile and I feel grateful!
Sometimes when I’m feeling stuck or in ‘lack thinking’…I notice abundance. At first it starts simply; with things like air, leaves, blueberries, tv channels, dog hair (joking but true)…and then I try to expand and make the list more and more interesting.
This practice has many valuable consequences…but in its most simplest form, I am distracted from my lack thinking, I am curious about how long I can make my list and I am left feeling way more resourceful than I started.
Today I told my husband that for our 19th Anniversary (next week), I would like to have a series of detailed discussions about our finances and consider setting a budget for our family. How’s that for a smoking hot gift. I actually think this gift WILL be pretty darn connecting for the two of us. We’ve got a mostly healthy perspective toward our financial situation however, for a good chunk of our married life, I’ve deferred the financial decisions to my husband.
I trust him implicitly and I outsourced the ‘confusing-to-me’ financial part of our relationship. I’ve often called it a “father/daughter” relationship with our money. In the past 5 or so years, I’ve decided that I intend to change that perspective. It has been a gradual process for me and each year I get a little more clarity and inspiration to see what our money really looks like. I know that I am not 100% where I want to be with my relationship with our money…so this year, I’m stepping up my game and I’m willing to dig deeper, see things differently, ask good questions and perhaps really know what our situation is.
What if this ‘not-so-romantic’ gift turns out to be relationship enhancing beyond what I can see now. Wouldn’t that be cool! So my very next steps are to look at the numbers in all of our accounts…really the very very next steps are to ask for the passwords for our accounts. Baby steps…one day at a time. To prosperity AND BEYOND!